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Chakras for Beginners

Annabelle MannJanuary 31, 2018

I feel myself trying to break through a veil. Like I’m smashing my head against a wall trying to push forward to the next space of existence but I’m not quite there yet... I crave a deeper connection to the earth, to myself. I crave a connection with god, jah, allah, source, universe. I crave work/art/movement that fulfills my need for closeness & fills the depths of my valleys. I always look back to search in myself when I‘ve felt most connected & want to get back there. But perhaps I need to search forward. What does the next phase look like for me ? How do I choose to sculpt it, receive it, ask for it ? What things & what pieces of myself do I need to release to free up space for the next level ? I can feel ideas brewing & they are swirling & twirling in such a way that I can’t seem to grab hold of them. But I know I will soon. So much to learn & so many ways to invest my time & energy. I just ask for guidance in staying true to MY path & not forgetting where I come from, who I come from, & why I am pushing on & on & on... “My cipher keep movin like a rollin stone; mad props to god jah born” 🌀

Dear vessel,
my fear of sexuality is not conducive to our creativity.
I luv u my vessel & I honor you as the greatest tool I've ever received. I will bask you in delicious sunlight. I will not shame you for wanting to be free of fabric. I will cover you in art that tells our stories. I will stretch you, touch you, play with you, push you to your fullest abilities. I will let you experience orgasms, heart ache, devastating sadness & pure blissful ecstasy. I will pour self-love thoughts into your brain & support u as you heal. I will cover you in coconut oil & cleanse you in the sea. I won't judge you when you fill in around your hips or when you get dimples on your thighs. I will electrify you with energy & power & bow down to the magnificent, intricate, miracle of a creation that you are. I will protect you, listen to you & let you shape shift as you must with time. I am capable of all things through you.
Love,
Ur meyend

I wrote this over a year ago, it’s interesting how we seem to forget our own truths...
📷: @yomiroyando

YO FUCK COMPARISON. It’ll be the death of you. We are all exactly where we should be along our journey. It’s so easy to look at other people’s worlds & think we aren’t where we should be or think we should be doing MORE. It’s great to feel inspired & motivated by another’s journey, but don’t belittle your own existence or forget your own growth in the process. You are capable of anything you put your mind to & everyone around you is truly a reflection of yourself. I sometimes forget how far I’ve come or how many incredible blessings I have right in front of me. You gotta be grateful for & appreciate exactly where you are before you can begin to push forward. 🌀🦋 breathe, it’s a new day & you are SO capable. Woke up this morning tryna remind myself that if I stay focused on my own progress, goals, & dreams I can keep expanding & evolving beyond what I could ever imagine. Thank you so fucking much to everyone who purchases creations from me, it literally puts a roof over my head & feeds me & allows me to keep studying further into this insanity we call life. Here’s me on the coast near big sur wit my bus photographed by my sister @yomiroyando 🌻 what are you doing today to work towards YOUR individual personal growth ?

Every single day is a new day to be who ever the fuck you want to be. You’re allowed to change. You’re allowed to have different actions & reactions to your world. You’re allowed to change your mind or have new goals or dreams. Any day could be the best day of ur life & we forget that. You have no idea what knowledge you will gain, who you’ll meet, what connections will come your way. If you keep your heart & mind open to what’s next... breathe deep, drink some fuckkin water & start ur day as YOUR DAY. I know it’s easier said than done but it’s really all in your mental, so take control of ur self & do da damn thang. Sending my love, it’s a new day 🌻 be kind to those around u & don’t be afraid to share your truth. 🌀🦋 we all in this together.

i have struggled with mental health ever since I can remember. Asking “why am I here” & dreading the idea that I had to live a life I didn’t choose. I started drinking alcohol & getting stoned when I was 13. By 16 I was getting drunk every weekend & found myself in an abusive relationship, I didn’t like school, I had nothing I felt passionate about, I felt trapped in the idea that I had to be someone I was not, to fit in or be successful. I couldn’t break the habit of needing to be intoxicated to interact with others. That quickly progressed into fucking around with prescription pills, mdma, & cocaine. Somehow I maintained my grades in school & still played on the soccer team & mostly fronted like everything was okay when I felt like I was dying inside. I was severely depressed, struggling with anxiety, going between starving myself & binge eating. I hated myself, I felt like I had no reason to be alive. I held in all my thoughts & feelings till finally they erupted & my parents started to notice changes in my behavior. I began digging my fingernails into my skin when I had anxiety attacks & I became suicidal. I was forced into therapy & my fucking amazing mom had to be with me 24/7 while I was on “suicide watch” she literally sat in the bathroom while I shit/showered, Slept in my room, forced me to drink water, eat food... my dad treated me with homeopathy & I began to find a little light at the end of the tunnel. But I was still abusing drugs & alcohol until I was 21 as a coping mechanism. I finally got sober (with the occasional use of plant medicine) & started to carve my own path. I just NOW have begun to have a RELATIONSHIP with my mental illness rather than a struggle with her. & I’d be lying if I said I never get suicidal or can’t get out of my bed for days. It’s something I am still learning. But in the depth of all the shit is where we can find compassion & empathy for those around us. Everyone struggles, you’re not alone in it. & you shouldn’t be ashamed of it either. check in with ur loved ones & remind them how much u care for them, ask them how they’re doing. It’s the little simple check-ins that we all need. Life is fragile. Keep breathing🌀🦋

First of all, I love you & if ur reading this- you’re beautiful, strong & capable. Its easy to blame the world or those around you for your unhappiness & discontentment. I forget that I have toxic behavior, too. Nobody wants to be seen as the “bad” traits they have but those seem to be the places where we can have the most growth & cultivate the most honesty & vulnerability with ourselves & others. I can be selfish, dishonest, judgmental, jealous, dependent, angry, highly sensitive... the list goes on & on. But these pieces of me are not ME, they are pieces of me that I get to work on & shift if I choose to. I feel the sooner you recognize & admit YOUR toxic behavior, the sooner you can get the momentum moving forward. What’s a toxic behavior you have & how are you working towards accepting/loving/shifting it ? Lemme know cause maybe it could help another do the same👂🏽💕 photograph by: @thegoddessmirrorproject

“We have to create culture, don't watch TV, don't read magazines, don't even listen to NPR. Create your own roadshow. The nexus of space and time where you are now is the most immediate sector of your universe, and if you're worrying about Michael Jackson or Bill Clinton or somebody else, then you are disempowered, you're giving it all away to icons, icons which are maintained by an electronic media so that you want to dress like X or have lips like Y. This is shit-brained, this kind of thinking. That is all cultural diversion, and what is real is you and your friends and your associations, your highs, your orgasms, your hopes, your plans, your fears. And we are told 'no', we're unimportant, we're peripheral. 'Get a degree, get a job, get a this, get a that.' And then you're a player, you don't want to even play in that game. You want to reclaim your mind and get it out of the hands of the cultural engineers who want to turn you into a half-baked moron consuming all this trash that's being manufactured out of the bones of a dying world.”
-Terence McKenna
some film I shot of my beautiful sister, @yomiroyando creator/photographer/author of @thegoddessmirrorproject.

feeling really grateful for a community of humans around me who care for me, support me & do their best to understand me & respect my rhythms. I’ve struggled with mental health since I can remember & part of that includes me fully closing myself off from the world. I’m moody, easily irritated, & I don’t like doing shit I don’t wanna do. I am extremely sensitive to criticism & often struggle with communicating when I need space. I’m working on myself every day, but in the meantime thank you for accepting me for where I’m at & being open & willing to evolve with me. I am so blessed 🦋

Nature loves courage. You make the commitment and nature will respond to that commitment by removing impossible obstacles. Dream the impossible dream and the world will not grind you under, it will lift you up. This is the trick. This is what all these teachers and philosophers who really counted, who really touched the alchemical gold, this is what they understood. This is the shamanic dance in the waterfall. This is how magic is done. By hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it's a feather bed.
-Terence Mckenna ...my life feels like a dream rn ✨ we are so fucking privileged. If you have a smart phone to be on Instagram, you can literally google anything & gain knowledge. Start asking questions & enjoy the search for all the “answers”. What a fucking time to be alive. The whole world can be your guru. Peace & love.

I believe in the cosmic momentum of this existence. We’ve tried to put a name on the magic for all of eternity with languages we’ve constructed so that we can compartmentalize & grasp the concept which is literally inconceivably fluid. We do our best with our words but beyond all else it’s a FEELING. An experience in our mind/body/soul which shifts our existence. We feel that the world molds & shifts us day to Day and then we just react to what’s thrown at us & we have no control.... NAH NAH NAH. Take control of your fucking mind. Are you a slave to your ego or have you befriended it to use as a tool ? You choose how you dance with life. Sometimes it’s easier said than done but you really are so fuckin capable of shifting your own reality. When you wake up in the morning you choose how your day will go. We have so many beautiful & amazing tools to help us. Writing in your journal, meditating with a crystal, drinking tea, stretching, reading a book. all tools to help us mold our reality. Everything can be used as a teacher & a tool if you perceive it this way. Every single moment is an opportunity to shift ur mind into the state of being you would like to be in. Jus try it 🦋🌀 today is a new day. How do you wanna feel ?! Really how do you want your day to unfold. Let yourself be in ultimate control of your reactions, don’t take things personally today & stay mellow. See how it feels 🌻 sending all my love. @soodthedood on da film always capturing the light & the dark 🦋

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